Okay, here’s one more reverse culture adjustment I’m making. Â There’s a sense of entitlement here to do whatever feels right, whatever one wants to do, at any given moment, with no need to weigh the effects of that action on others. Â Go with the gut, not with what others might think or feel or suffer as a result.
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“Don’t listen to him, this is your decision. Â Do what YOU want to do. Â If he really loved you he’d love you enough to let you follow your own heart.”
“(enter name of product here)- for whenever the urge strikes.”
“It’s up to you, you have to choose your own path in life. Â I will support whatever decision you make.”
“Go ahead, pamper yourself– you deserve it.”
These aren’t direct quotes from anything, but doesn’t it sound familiar? Â I keep hearing things like this on TV dramas, commercials, daily conversation, and they seem to go unquestioned. Â The values of being true to yourself and independent have some positive elements. Â But there seems to be a widely-held ideal that we are only responsible to ourselves, we should listen to and obey every urge or desire we feel, and we should not pay too much attention to requests or desires of others or we may lose ourselves, not be “true to our hearts.”
Obviously, I’m exaggerating and generalizing some. Â But not a whole lot.
On the other end of the spectrum is Thailand. Â (No, literally– I saw a spectrum recently that put America and Thailand on opposite ends of the individualism/collectivism spectrum). Â I think that if Thais were to make a list and rank who they believed they are responsible for and to, they would put themselves quite a ways down the list. Â Family would be number one, followed by the king (though those two might be switched). Â Friends, neighbors, patrons would make the list. Â They would likely mention their ancestors, their country and culture, Buddha and the idols they worship.
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In making decisions, it is rare to hear a Thai talk about what they want to do or their “gut instinct”. Â Instead they try to balance the effect of the decision on important people in their lives. Â There is a word in Thai that we don’t have in English except as a phrase: “grengjai”, or “to be afraid of imposing on someone.” Â I think it’s one of the most commonly-used words in their language:
“I wanted to, but I was grengjai”
“No, please, you don’t have to be grengjai.”
“How rude– he wasn’t grengjai at all.”
At first glance this can seem much more gracious, much less selfish than the extreme our culture often goes. Â But in the extreme, this aspect of collectivism can be pretty ugly, too. Â People really can lose themselves and their boundaries. Â Relationships stay surface-level because people don’t want to do the uncomfortable work of conflict and reconciliation. Â Bitterness grows as people constantly stuff down what they want for what they feel they “should” do. Â Unhealthy compromises are made and abuses suffered. Â One person is treated unfairly in favor of another of higher status or closer connection.
Having now lived and adapted to both cultures, I find myself trying to reconcile these extremes. Â What in each of these worldviews needs to be redeemed? Â What is from God?
So what I’ve come up with is that the most important thing is that we are responsible to God, first and foremost. Â Otherwise I become my own god, or people around me become gods.
Jesus does teach us to lay down our lives for others, which is something we Americans could learn a bit about from Thais. Â But if this is not as a submitted act of worship to him, it becomes idolatry or moralistic duty.
God also tells us that if we are believers we have the Spirit inside us to guide us, and that sometimes, in obedience to him, we have to do things that are offensive to others. Â This comes more naturally to us in the West than those in the East. Â But without submission to that Spirit within us, we follow our own broken, diseased, selfish hearts and become our own gods, justifying the destruction we leave in our wake.
It seems to me that from Scripture, the correct hierarchy of responsibility should be first to God, then to others, and finally to ourselves. Â After all, we are supposed to think of others as greater than ourselves. Â But sometimes we must be like Mary, sitting at Jesus’ feet rather than helping her sister with the meal preparation, or like Paul, confronting those in authority. Â How we relate to others and to our own desires must be submitted to God.
This challenges me to be more in prayer. Â Because the Thai side of me pulls me in one direction (defer to others, don’t assert yourself too much, figure out what will keep the peace) and the American side pulls me the other (listen to yourself, ignore what others think, go your own way). Â But when I’m most connected to God I sense that he is guiding me, and I can be counter-cultural, responsible to him, governed by love. Â And he is a much better guide than myself or my perception of those around me.
I recently had a visitor ask me the question, “when you leave later this year, what about Thailand will stick with you? How will you act differently in the States?”
It’s now November. I leave next October. So I’m officially in my last year, and I’m now aware that everything that comes around annually is, this time, my “last” time.
